21 JUNE 2020 - FATHER'S DAY
23 JUNE 2020 - ABAH 56 BIRTHDAY
Abah even you are not with us with me anymore. Day by day i learn more of fatherhood. Looking back what you did had guided me. Irony, when i was growing up also even you are by my side, it's hard for me to understand the life lesson you are showing me. Only when i grow older and i understand it. Now, it's also the same.
Growing up i am afraid and fear of your wrath when i want to do something wrong. Even in MRSM, i directly told the warden, he can punish me anything he want but don't call my parent. I known how you don't like this kind of thing. When i was 13 - 15 years old, there was the phase i'm hating you. I felt that you do not understand me. You are not supporting me unlike other parent. We were enemy. With the stubbornness i am, i fight against everything not willing to beg you for help. You only given me 10 or 15 ringgit every week. I save on lunch, cycle to school and lie to the bus conductor to save 20 sen. That time, even to buy 10 sen, i can't afford. That start the determination, anyhow i need to go to better school.
Older i understand and glad i learned all this. It shape me to who i am. Maybe being an Abah, you need to be hated to be afraid of, to be fierce by your child. Then, you can shape your child. It's better to be hated now then hating later what your child had turn out to be.
Thank abah for shaping me and being my idol.
Mohamed Radzi Ahmad.