I remember in the old days, Hari Raya morning is always a very hard day to wake up early. We knew that we need to wake up early to go to the mosque but eventually we end up sleeping late or not sleeping at all. That will end up with Abah shouting to wake us up. My siblings and I will end up sleeping during khutbah.
Today, here I am 7:00 am already at the mosque. You only start to appreciate things when it is out of your reach.
1 Syawal 1442H
13 May 2021
Selamat Hari Raya
Hari Raya tak ada makna sangat bagi aku, yang aku tahu puasa dah habis, boleh makan waktu siang. Waktu sekolah rendah aku rasa puasa ni macam dah separuh nyawa. Dia punya haus tu macam nak merangkak lah. Ada je time aku tak puasa minum air paip.
Harini kau suruh aku tak makan 72 jam pun tak ada hal aku rasa. Puasa tu macam benda normal. Tahun 2021 ni aku rasa satu improvement, kami tak pergi bazar sangat, tak membazir, Air pun tak beli. Air satu plastik 5 ringgit, gila apa, 5 ringgit tu dapat nasi lauk ayam. But then, Nasi kukus pulak dia pergi jual RM10, cibet semua nak cepat kaya.
Tradisi kami hari raya biasa sahaja, pergi masjid solat raya, pergi raya rumah saudara mara di Kuantan. Masa budak budak seronok pergi untuk makan dengan dapat duit raya. Bila dah fasa tua ni, when you have all the opinions about other people malas pulak nak pergi beraya. When i joined my wife family, they also have similar things called Baraan. Yang ni aku boleh enjoy sebab aku tak kenal pun all those people so you can be neutral, just enjoy the ambien and food.
Aku ingat ada satu tahun Abah semangat nak buat persiapan raya. Kami buat lemang from scratch, rendang, ketupat. Aku rasa yang seronok sebenarnya buat persiapan raya. Beli baju raya, that sort of things. When Raya comes, lepas solat raya dia dah jadi macam hari biasa. TV pun dah tak macam dulu tak menarik.
In a few years, how will Raya be for my kids?