Kita Fighter?

Ada masa aku rasa aku di atas, aku ada semua, aku nak semua. Aku boleh fight untuk semua.

Ada masa aku rasa lemah sangat. Aku jatuh. Tak mampu nak buat apa. Aku akan jatuh senyap lepas aku cara jalan aku fight. Aku tak boleh terus jatuh dan terima.

Aku dihardcoded untuk fight. Aku tak tahu betul atau tak. Benda ni jadi macam begitu sahaja. Aku tak tahu dari mana dia datang. Betul ke. Mungkin semua orang mcm ni. Mungkin mereka fight dalam cara mereka sendiri. 

Aku tak boleh terima orang yang jatuh dan terima. Sampai aku kena cakap tak semua orang ditakdirkan berjaya. Ataupun berjaya mereka berbeza siapa kita nak hakimi.

Aku harap anak anak aku ada benda ni. Dan mereka boleh masukan dalam anak anak mereka. Dengan harapan, dalam segelintir yang berjaya ada mereka.

Sifir

Sifir ke tak Sifir ? 1 + 1 = 2. Hidup tak straight forward macam tu. Kenapala dia tak straight forward macam tu. Atau kalau dia straight forward hidup lagi susah.

Bodoh Malas = hidup susah. Tp ada masa orang rajin pun hidup susah. Ada masa orang bodoh nasib dia pulak baik. Susah nak cakap. Tapi better jadi pandai dan rajin atleast the odd better for us.

Jaga kesihatan, jaga makan, hidup lama? Tak tentu juga. Ni asyik risau pasal sakit. Ada orang makan semua benda, sakit ubat, sakit ubat, hidup lagi lama.

Sebab apa hidup tak ada sifir. Susah nak cakap. Tp aku, aku rasa maybe luck aku tak baik sangat. Memang aku tak ada takdir nak hidup lama lama. Haha. Nasib nasib.

Man Across The Table

A story of a man been working for 30 hard years at an iron mill. One day he was called to the office to meet the mill owner. They had a talk. At the end of day the man felt that there was nothing special with the owner. Even he can be like him if he decide to do something with his life this past 30 years.

When you look at your boss or people above you long enough you will knew whether he worth to be there or not. Also if you are ready to be there.

Then when the time come you need to show why you are there. That will commence respect. Your position is nothing if you are not fit to it. Deep down you know unless you are to stupid. The most stupid person out there if the one who did not know he is stupid.

Lumba ke tak Lumba

Hidup ni satu perlumbaan atau tidak ?

Waktu kita membesar semua start dari 0 dengan common goal dan kayu ukur yang sama. Tak kisah la kau nak jadi apa kayu ukur nya lebih kurang sama untuk umur kau at least sampai kau SPM. Kau boleh argue ada orang yang ada certain advantage dan kau tak ada tapi end of the day semua di ukur dekat kayu yang sama.

Aku memang against idea mansuh segala exam yang standardized. Pentaksiran sekolah lah, kemahiran insaniah lah that is bullshit. Walau apa pun kita tetap kena ada the basic knowledge. It is a race dan kau kena check all the points. Score all the A sebab kau cuma boleh lalu checkpoint tu sekali je. Mungkin certain orang tak kisah tapi the result akan bersama kau sampai mati.

Bila dah dewasa aku rasa dia masih berlumba. Mungkin kayu dia dah tak sama. Bila dah dewasa kau berlumba dan ukur dengan kayu yang kau sendiri set. Kalau kau berlumba dengan kayu orang lain kau takkan rasa tenang.

Kayu kau yang kau sendiri set apa checkpoint kau. Apa kau nak jadi, apa kau nak buat. Kalau kau tak set kayu kau sendiri hidup kau akan jadi static dan tak ada cita-cita. Dengan ilmu pengalaman baru kau tahu macam mana nak set dan capai checkpoint kau. Tanpa ini, mula la kau set benda yang mengarut dan kelakar.

Period ni period yang susah dalam hidup aku tapi aku belajar banyak benda dengan tengok orang.

6 YEARS OR 10 YEARS

 If you start counting from 3rd September it is 6. If really from 2012 then it is a decade. This might read selfish but if you are not responsible to take care of yourself then who would? Self started from one then it became two then by this time four.

I chose my wife who could support me to fulfill my life and dream. Life and dream also varies and changes over time. We had gone thru a lot since it started but people only see the good part but the bad part actually teaches you and makes you improve. Sometimes it triggers me when people said that we are fortunate, we have an easy life.  I can't understand how people see it but a lot of them said it. Maybe they saw us going places, living comfortably, and dining what we want.

In 6 years Yasmen had enough experience with our marriage till she had also evolved in the way she thinks at least. There is no easy way to achieve it unless you grind and work hard. It's a shame some people believe you can do it the other way around and still reach it. Yes, maybe with some luck. Sadis if you fail.

I look at anniversaries the same way I look at birthdays. What had we achieved and improved over a year? From 5th to 6th, I am still finding my way in my career. I earn less, but technically I feel I have more skill than before. Aaron has been better with reading and math, Akhtar has grown up more, and Yasmen I need to ask her.

For more years to come. May our life be better and better.