We and Our Life

We and our life. Life work in a special way. When we took a certain path all seem good. We are confident of our decision. We got all the reasons behind it. We had thought it through. We had our game plan.

Then, it starts to fuck up. Things don't go according to plan. All of our confidence vanishes. All is wrong. We wish we could reverse it. We hope we could redo it. We could rethink the decision made.

Life does not work like math. One screw up decision does not equal one fucked up moment. It is equal to few numbers of fucked up moments. It shall hunt you until you are old and still regretting.

Always second and third guess yourself. Even when you are 110% sure. Make sure you see all the possible outcomes. No matter how arrogant you are, just hear out what others want to say and think about it. Take 20 minutes before you shut your eyes and think about your life.

Dunia yang Mana

Dunia sementara akhirat yang kekal. Jangan kejar dunia. Itulah yang orang cakap.

Tapi dunia pun tuhan buat. Kalau hanya sementara baik buat macam sangkar hamster. Ada tempat tido, cukup lah.

Tapi dunia ni terlalu besar. Adake orang yang pernah tengok setiap ceruk dunia. Pergi semua tempat, alami semuanya.

Ya akhirat tu kekal tapi sementara kita di dunia kita perlu tengok sebahagian daripadanya. Pergi macam macam tempat yang mampu sampai. Alami nya.

Sibuk bekerja kumpul harta kalau tak ada masa nak belanja kan pun tak guna. Mungkin kumpul yang cukup dan pusing dunia ni. Pergi Australia, Pergi America, Pergi Europe, Pergi Japan, Pergi Afrika. Mungkin naik cruise. Mungkin pusing setiap daerah Pahang, setiap negeri.

Mungkin pergi Sabah, alami setiap daerahnya.

Dunia untuk dinikmati.

5 Years Anniversary

Today five years ago, a fine Saturday morning I woke up just fine to start my journey. I went to see Abah first then drive to Klang. A bit sorrow as Abah who is the one excited for my marriage. Maybe it was a symbol that he had raised me to a certain level and for the future. He plans the date, the value of the arrangement and updated everyone. Even I was surprised during the engagement how he talks his way through. All along I know him he was a man of few words.

We reach Sijangkang on time. I had a list of tasks to be completed on that day and honestly, I just ignored the others with their opinions and plans. I had practised the akad hundreds of times. I just a walk in the park.

Yasmen and I, yes we had been married for five years but we had been together more. More than 10 years. We had been thru thick and thin. We have our plan. Our ideas of how we want to live our life. I had chosen a lady who was willing to fight and sacrifice to be on top. A catalyst, not an anchor.

Things might not be as our full plan but we are where we want to be. We had two kids well-spaced between ages. Growing up quite well. We want them to always be the best. We have our comfort home. We got some luxury and savings.

Let see how the next 5 years be.