Office Politics

The politic will always be there. You cannot run for it. I'll consider myself good with it. I can survive, able to manipulate to my end and read people.

Today I felt sick of it. In the politics you know you won't be your true self and someone will hate you for sure. That the standard. So, you don't keep claiming you are good and you are doing your job perfectly. If you and the world is working perfectly then, they will be no need for politic.

It is there because you are not doing what you should do. So, stop saying you are right, playing the victim and others are wrong. It is sickening.

30 YEARS OLD

Today my life turns into a new milestone. Every Birthday, I look into what I had achieved last year. Some years are to be proud of some just a memory I want to forget.

30 years old

0 - 5: My memories kind of vague. I remember a few goods and bad. It was a very distant memory. I can remember Malacca. Other than that all is very blurred.

6 - 12: The time where I felt I am at the top of the world. My world was very small at that moment. A small child yet to see the rough world. School just a playground to me. 

13 - 15: All the heartbreak keep pouring in. I sort of lost trying to find my way around the mess of my world.

16 - 17: The world keeps becoming bigger. I start to understand something so much bigger than usual and unchangeable. A regular effort would not change anything.

18 - 23: Experienced from my venture to the open world, I start to work around it but sometimes I think I am too smart to play around it and I fell short. All those bruised given me more experience.

24 - 25: Launching my career in the outworld. Very tough, I keep my shit all the way. Good feeling to earn my own money.

26 - 28: Just lost Abah. I lost my way for a while. Get married and have a kid. Figuring all this and making my way with it. A lot of things happening.

29: More insightful things happen. I need to repair myself, having my second child. A new challenge that I need to face to grow up.

30 years maybe half of my lifetime or a third of it. Maybe I all ready past my halftime and nearly the end. Hopefully after this I able to endure all the challenges coming and come up well.