26 January 2020
This shall mark the end of my 20's decade. I start my 20 with university. Owning my first car. Graduating my degree. Starting my dream job which i dream of since i was 5 years old. Losing my father when i was 25th. Getting married. Being a father. Owning a house. and lot of other things.
I am grateful that i have a good run as an engineer. I learn a lot of thing. It is a hard career path. Days outside with the sun. Facing a lot of people. I am surrounded by good people who help me grow up. I know the pay not as good as others are earning at the beginning but for now it is secure. I think the main reason i am still standing because this was my dream so i am willing to face it. This may not be forever because when the day come i need to sacrifice my career and earning for important thing. Hopefully when the drought come i'll be strong enough.
I am grateful that i have a good wife that complete me. You can find a lot of wife type, you just name it. Myself had a good run out there. Day by day Allah give me a glance of all the people that i know and how my life might be if i be with them. When i choose my wife, i choose the one who i know will complete me, would not derail my life and who i can live with. It may look like i am selfish and self-centered but i know for certain i need a wife who can support me and would not derail me with stupid stuff. A wife who know that you need to face hardship before you live well. A wife who know only the strong will survive. A wife who know to differentiate what people surround her say. A wife who believe me.
I am grateful that i have a good son who i always wanted and willing to sacrifice all for him. Raising him i think lot of easier compare to other i think. I want him to grow up to be the better version of me. Achieve higher than me. Go study oversea and have a better career. He is nearly 3 years old now. From now on i think i need to be more strict with him. I had saw son who grow up being to pampered by their father. I don't want Aaron to be weak. He need to differentiate what out there and keep his aim straight.
I am grateful that i have a good family. We had not been the same since abah passed away. My mum still finding her way. My sister and brother still looking for their future. I also don't know what they want to become. I am trying to hold this responsibility for as hard as i can. I hope i am strong enough to keep my family together. I hope one day everyone can be successful in the way they wanted. So, everyone can live satisfied and not be envy of other.
I am grateful that i had time to do things even though lots of things happen. I had not have free time since last year. I mean free time where you really have no time to do and just relax. Anyhow i am still grateful for all the thing that i need to do and hopefully all this for the better future.
