POSITION

Their is a case where position is not important everyone shall be treated equal. And there is a situation where position need to be there. It is not for the display of who's on top and bottom. It shall reflect on the function of each member of the group. Simply family. Each call name have their own function. Mom, Dad and the children.

Dad, the one who provide for the family. Provide protection, food, money. To ensure everyone live well, have a roof above, children having good education, grow up the child in fatherly manner. Without all this you will be a useless father. But people should understand some people will have limitation. Anyhow each one should at least provide his best effort to function.

Similar, a child often view as the weakest of the family. The weak will grow strong if nurture in the right way. During the child phase, he should put his best effort to learn for he need to be function in his future. Take care of his parent, siblings and protect the family legacy. A weak child will bring shame to the family legacy and grow a weaker child. By generation, there is nothing to be proud of the family. Do not look down on your function child.

Does this position need to be specified? A father might not be a man. For a single mother, She the one who provide for the family, ensure there is food on the table. Then, she is the father and mother of the family.

Position are same as respect, it need to there and put to use.

Benda Boleh Nampak

One of the reason aku suka dengar lokal radio kerajaan, akan ada orang orang yang call and berikan pendapat diorang mengenai certain issue. Dari situ aku boleh gauge people state of mind and their view on certain issue. Better dari radio swasta yang syok sendiri dan asyik pasang iklan.

Ada sorang pak cik ni call cerita pasal harta pusaka. His family was unfairly denied the right to their grand mother hereditary. Tapi at end of the day family yang dapat tu tak senang mana pun. One of the thing that i felt so grateful was Allah always show me the outcome of the certain things through other people example. So, i would not end up making the certain mistake.

Nak kan harta pusaka tu biasa. Bila nampak benda mudah orang akan gelap mata. Then, tambah dengan dengki lagila nak deny hak orang lain. Biasanya ada dua cara orang akan buat. Satu guna kekerasan terang terang rampas hak orang lain. Semua orang nampak. Dua dengan acah acah baik. Konon gunakan duit tu untuk kebaikan. Supaya semua dapat benefit tapi senyap2 diri sendiri makan. Through family bisnes ke buat benda benda amal ke. Last last semua masuk angin keluar asap dia je kenyang. Yang ini yang paling bahaya.

This kind of scam la aku nak elak family aku terlibat. This scam also become a joke in our family. We could laugh all day talking about this. Abah pernah cakap duit tergolek ni tak tahan lama. Easy come easy go. Sebab tu la duit menipu mencuri macam ni tak kan senang.

Apa yang abah tinggalkan aku tak ambil apa apa. Bagi aku, that money won't be there if abah tak meninggal. What i inherited is his company business. Aku gerakan sebab tak nak the thing come to waste. Kalau tak gerakan bye bye la. Thinking how hard abah nak maintankan company so aku take the responsibility. Sometime its a burden. I lost a lot of time. Apa profit yang ada aku simpan dalam account untuk future. We start with 5K je sebab duit company masuk ke faraid. Aku ambil apa yang aku rasa aku patut dapat sebagai gaji bila projek siap. Modal and tenaga semua dari aku.

Duit yang direct terus masuk dekat aku hanya dari KWSP and Tabung Haji abah. KWSP aku gunakan untuk aqiqah Aaron. Tabung Haji adalah dalam akaun aku. Aku transfer sikit masuk akaun Aaron. Then untuk adik-adik dia. Atleast they got something from their to'ki.

In conclusion, earn everything that you want. Do not hope for this kind of wealth.

SEMUA NAK BERCAKAP - KAWIN

Beberapa hari lepas ada seorang ni post cara-cara seorang isteri nak siapkan makanan untuk suami dia makan selepas balik kerja dalam masa yang sama menjaga anak. Kebanyakan comment semua menghentam suami. Suami macam raja. suami tak buat kerja.

Then, ada yang post jangan kawin dengan lelaki macam tu lelaki lembu. Zaman ni dah tak patut ada lelaki macam tu. Then ada yang post lelaki sepatutnya macam mana. Tolong Isteri Etc.

Mula mula sekali, ada ke sesiapa yang kawin kena paksa? Semua keputusan sendiri yang nak kawin. Nak kawin dengan lembu ke dengan anjing ke. Masa sebelum kawin ada tak kau fikir, bakal suami kau rajin ke malas ?

Jadi selepas kau buat keputusan untuk kawin, what do you expect ? apa function kau kawin dan apa function kau dalam perkahwinan?

Kalau satu keluarga tu duduk rumah macam nak roboh, anak anak tak ada duit nak pergi sekolah, kereta buruk, apa masyarakat akan cakap? Apala isteri mamat ni tak guna. Tak boleh sara keluarga. Tak kan. Dah tentu yang salah suami.

Then, kalau anak anak makan benda tak senonoh, baju kotor apa masyarakat akan cakap. Apa benda la kiah ni rumah tak terjaga, anak tak makan. Mamat ni tak pandai ajar bini dia ke. Mamat juga yang kena kan.

Setiap orang ada peranan dia sendiri dalam rumah tangga. I rarely don't give a fuck about all this FB post but looking at all those comment, you can judge what are our society state of mind. Moreover, guna agama cakap apa tugas suami terhadap isteri, sediakan itu ini. Bila pasal diri sendiri pandai tunggang agama.

Isteri buat tugas seorang isteri. Suami yang sayangkan isteri dia akan tolong meringankan. Ada masa orang bila nak cakap apa dia rasa dia lupa kedudukan dia. Kau nak kondem orang adakah anak kau, rumah kau all in order. Kau nak cakap kau penat kerja, ada ke kau angkat batu atas belakang. Habis kuat pagi sembang, taip sikit, lunch, taip sikit petang sembang. How much did you contribute to the house ?

With this kind of mind set, what kind of wife and husband would the future have and what kind of kids would they produce.

TWENTY NINE

26 January 2020

This shall mark the end of my 20's decade. I start my 20 with university. Owning my first car. Graduating my degree. Starting my dream job which i dream of since i was 5 years old. Losing my father when i was 25th. Getting married. Being a father. Owning a house. and lot of other things.


I am grateful that i have a good run as an engineer. I learn a lot of thing. It is a hard career path. Days outside with the sun. Facing a lot of people. I am surrounded by good people who help me grow up. I know the pay not as good as others are earning at the beginning but for now it is secure. I think the main reason i am still standing because this was my dream so i am willing to face it. This may not be forever because when the day come i need to sacrifice my career and earning for important thing. Hopefully when the drought come i'll be strong enough.


I am grateful that i have a good wife that complete me. You can find a lot of wife type, you just name it. Myself had a good run out there. Day by day Allah give me a glance of all the people that i know and how my life might be if i be with them. When i choose my wife, i choose the one who i know will complete me, would not derail my life and who i can live with. It may look like i am selfish and self-centered but i know for certain i need a wife who can support me and would not derail me with stupid stuff. A wife who know that you need to face hardship before you live well. A wife who know only the strong will survive. A wife who know to differentiate what people surround her say. A wife who believe me.


I am grateful that i have a good son who i always wanted and willing to sacrifice all for him. Raising him i think lot of easier compare to other i think. I want him to grow up to be the better version of me. Achieve higher than me. Go study oversea and have a better career. He is nearly 3 years old now. From now on i think i need to be more strict with him. I had saw son who grow up being to pampered by their father. I don't want Aaron to be weak. He need to differentiate what out there and keep his aim straight.


I am grateful that i have a good family. We had not been the same since abah passed away. My mum still finding her way. My sister and brother still looking for their future. I also don't know what they want to become. I am trying to hold this responsibility for as hard as i can. I hope i am strong enough to keep my family together. I hope one day everyone can be successful in the way they wanted. So, everyone can live satisfied and not be envy of other.


I am grateful that i had time to do things even though lots of things happen. I had not have free time since last year. I mean free time where you really have no time to do and just relax. Anyhow i am still grateful for all the thing that i need to do and hopefully all this for the better future. 

For You My Wife

Telah ku siapkan
satu daerah paling sunyi
Dalam hati ini
untuk kau isi sebagai isteri

You asked me hundred times of this question. The answer will be the same. It won't be as what other men will say. All those nice stuff. Honestly i had known a lot of women. Only with you, i shall be complete. You can withstand all the test and hurdle up ahead. You can stand the pressure to be push forward. You know what i want to be. I cannot be with someone who be mess up with all those petty stuff. Both of us know from the beginning what we need to sacrifice for our future.

You shall always be at the special place.

Untuk kau penuhi dengan kemuliaan seorang wanita
Untuk kau beri erti dengan kelembutan
Untuk kau hargai dengan kasih sayang

You shall be the soft and lovely part in our small family. I will push all of us to be the best from the best. Our kids will suffer but end of the day i am sure they shall understand. That how i was raised up and our kids will be same.  You shall be that soft place to hear their cry. There is no place for failure in our family. You shall shape our kids will all the good nature.

Ku ingin kau jadi wanita mulia
Yang tahu harga budi dan hati
Seorang lelaki bernama suami
Kerana engkau isteri

I am not good in expressing my love or appreciation. I am not romantic but i know you now i love you for all of it. I want to give our family a good life not matter where we are. Ensure all of us achieve our dream.

Ku ingin kau mengerti bahawa hidup ini
Tak semudah yang kita janjikan
Yang kita janjikan
Kerana kau isteriku

From day one of our marriage, i know i need to shape and care for everything even though  we had to have all those fight. If i decide to run from it our marriage shall just be a time bomb. I am sorry for all those fight but i know it for our own good. All the thing i band you from doing (masih lagi sendawa kuat) and the way i want you to do thing (sedapkan jemput resepi i) is for our own good. I also try to accept the way you do thing but you know your husband is a hardheaded.

I love you sayang.