TAKE TIME READ

Don't ever compare other life with yours. You might think you got the hardest life but this does make you able to said that other people hardship nothing compare to you. Remember when you came to something and whine as if you gonna die do other mock you. They just silent and let you be. Everyone have a choice if you think too much but cannot make the action then suck you. Every time you said why this happen to me is because you are too coward to make a decision. Stuck being coward and let your life being other ass forever. There is never late until you are alive. Cherish the one that give in your life. Don't take them easy. There are not your servant. One day the may decide to be gone forever and if they are ready gone take lesson and don't let the other left you too. Taking other easy show how bad you are in appreciating other. Learn and learn not to do this from the opportunity you got. In life there are only us to blame. 

writing to who that inspire me who that concern and who decided to make a change in their life  

It easy to say what goes around come around.
How on the receiving end of it ? 
Some turn up good some turn up bad
How about your past haunted you back
Where will you run.
When you are on a thing u will not take much of its aftermatch
But now it creep back at me.
Totally worthless if i can cancel back my past i will
But i can't i have to take the pain and suffering
Make for the forgiveness and look forward
There is nothing but regret.
Dear god you can put me in any pain but don't take the one that i love far away from me.
Don't hurt her or them. She is to much for me. A day without her is an empty jar.
Please her believe me.

SONS

This had been my wallpaper even since my third semester here. Now i am on fifth. So its more then a year. It is from the series Sons Of Anarchy. It a story of a biker gang and organised crime. It involve narcotic, guns and prostitute but its no porn parody. It a story of life. For people who did not understand maybe it sound boring. I am not going to write the synopsis of the series. I am going to bring a look of the other side. Jack Teller build his family around SAMCRO. His the president. He change the club to a better way but his points is to take out his family out of the club business and start a new life. No matter how he trigger thing shit always pile up on him. Even it is not his fault. A small stone throw  can slide a boulder down. That how its relate to me. I just trying to build a normal life. I don't one all the gold on the land i just want what i need. I want to have a normal family. Living raising my kids with my wife take care of my parent and family. I don't care what shit happen to other. People keep pulling me with their shit. I am tired of caring for other and hoping to help make their life better because it is a disappointment. Yeah shit that i do in my past keep pulling me back. I am trying hard to stay put. I don't want all the ladies in the house because i have one that protect my need and care for me be there when i need her the most. I don't one all the riches i just want to sustain my life and spend some more when i want. I want to protect my family and held them close. Every time i put a plan to motion it will sway the other way. People keep throwing shit because hell of reason. Sons Of Anarchy had accompany me the most of my life  

3 NEGERI CONTINUE

More adventure on 1 day 3 Negeri ? Right now i am collecting stories to write. where did i stop last time..hmm.. cut it short. I ask her. Its not so romantic and kind of a twist. I said i can't promise her nothing now, i am not a good person and i have a bad passing days. I really want to be something for her and the better one from his past. She keeping telling me about them. Sometime it hurt as it never stop. The effect blaze me much. At first she thought  i am going the other way. She always like that laa haha. Now we are counting our days. This is the most real relationship i have. I try to put patience in this one considering what i had before. We try to learn to be together for our future. I told her if anything wrong she can always talk to me. I tell her what my hope are for her. She really need to help me to adopt to this. I really need someone understanding. She promise she will. I know she can fulfill it's. I know her and her move. I really appreciate her and know she is something. Each day is full of it's own story. We have our up and down with me being like this. Always do all sort of stupid things. The old routine keep coming back. Our fight did not last 24 hours. I am really thankfull for that because I can't imagine a day without her. Not knowing what her did or anything happen give me cold maybe after 24 hours i end up dead of worrying. I know she can took care for her self and thing like that haha. So how longs we have been together. She always said we have been together for 8 month. Haha.. right you ? That funny chupp girl. 

TENS ON AHMAD SYAZZUWAN

1. I am a man of dream. I dream the impossible and do anything the possible to archive it. Tell me what i can't and i prove you wrong. Come on challenge me, i'll bet you lose.
2. I am no friend of fate. We are the worst of enemy. He screw either way. No matter how he gets me. The most ridiculous thing happen my ways. Don't tell me it's nothing if you do not know me enough.
3. I love my family so much. Enough said. Only family understand this.
4. I don't talk shit much. Cause talking mean nothing. You can talk  but as long you did not prove anything you just a rubbish too. I only talk a lot with people i am concern with and as long the are willing to listen. Till this date my mum the one.
5. I and my religion is personal. It's my personal duty to the god. I know i am weak at it. i do not need no turban, or post quran verse or wear Baju melayu just to show people i do my prayer. What the point of wearing Hijab or songkok if to touch the quran once a week you can't.
6. I am full of revenge. Once you play your shit with me, i'll make you suffer, believe me i do. I only give you one trust once you shit you are dead to me.
7. I am aggressive at small and stupid things but at some big things i try to watch and give a hint so the people learn and change. All my siblings understand this. Only stupid person deserve to be mad of and still did not learn.
8. Hard lesson mean nothing to me. The more you mock and scream the worse it's be. Gentle calm the cat. Your mother wont just came at your wrong  and slap you because it is easier to slap in the face then talking first gently right. So learn.
9. I believe in this world spins by money. Its sound mercenary but it's true. I put myself through sweat to get it so i own its. You own your money not the money own you, or you will just be a whore.
10. I believe if we do the right thing on earth someday we end up in heaven. We must gets both because each is related. No religion tell its follower to do bad. Repair my self first in this world and the heaven will follow.