Religious and Me

Even though I am not a religious person, I do believe that we need it. Religion gives us a thin edge line that said what we cannot do and out there every religion ask their follower to do good.

To think of it, being in Islam how should we carry out our application of Islam? Yes, Islam is a way of life, in anything that we do, there will always be if not more but a small part of Islam in it. I like to view life in contact of is religion carry out in sprint races orMe marathons.

From what I knew, in Islam, it did not matter where you start but the matter is where you finish. Do your good outweighs your bad when your life ends? How much good you should do, simply does it matter if you race at the school level of the Olympics. Does it matter if your act of kindness cost RM1 or RM1000? For sprinters, maybe you start a religious school, Tahfiz you memorise the Quran. By the knowledge you have, it should keep you at least on the right lane until the end. What if after that you stop practising or worse get involved with something shirik, it means you had to stop sprinting or even walking the race. Then, if you are a start and stop sprinter, maybe this month you practise a lot of Islam, then you stop for a while. I guess it is back to the rule, do your good outweigh your bad and do you die in Islam?

Marathoners, just continue their practice of Islam, the manipulative factor is their pace. Do they just walk or run in their practice? I see myself as a walking or maybe a crawling marathoner. I don't feel myself being a religious guy, having a beard, tabligh and all that.

Maybe I continue practice and maybe someday it improves.

30 Ramadhan 1444H

Kita Fighter?

Ada masa aku rasa aku di atas, aku ada semua, aku nak semua. Aku boleh fight untuk semua.

Ada masa aku rasa lemah sangat. Aku jatuh. Tak mampu nak buat apa. Aku akan jatuh senyap lepas aku cara jalan aku fight. Aku tak boleh terus jatuh dan terima.

Aku dihardcoded untuk fight. Aku tak tahu betul atau tak. Benda ni jadi macam begitu sahaja. Aku tak tahu dari mana dia datang. Betul ke. Mungkin semua orang mcm ni. Mungkin mereka fight dalam cara mereka sendiri. 

Aku tak boleh terima orang yang jatuh dan terima. Sampai aku kena cakap tak semua orang ditakdirkan berjaya. Ataupun berjaya mereka berbeza siapa kita nak hakimi.

Aku harap anak anak aku ada benda ni. Dan mereka boleh masukan dalam anak anak mereka. Dengan harapan, dalam segelintir yang berjaya ada mereka.

Sifir

Sifir ke tak Sifir ? 1 + 1 = 2. Hidup tak straight forward macam tu. Kenapala dia tak straight forward macam tu. Atau kalau dia straight forward hidup lagi susah.

Bodoh Malas = hidup susah. Tp ada masa orang rajin pun hidup susah. Ada masa orang bodoh nasib dia pulak baik. Susah nak cakap. Tapi better jadi pandai dan rajin atleast the odd better for us.

Jaga kesihatan, jaga makan, hidup lama? Tak tentu juga. Ni asyik risau pasal sakit. Ada orang makan semua benda, sakit ubat, sakit ubat, hidup lagi lama.

Sebab apa hidup tak ada sifir. Susah nak cakap. Tp aku, aku rasa maybe luck aku tak baik sangat. Memang aku tak ada takdir nak hidup lama lama. Haha. Nasib nasib.

Man Across The Table

A story of a man been working for 30 hard years at an iron mill. One day he was called to the office to meet the mill owner. They had a talk. At the end of day the man felt that there was nothing special with the owner. Even he can be like him if he decide to do something with his life this past 30 years.

When you look at your boss or people above you long enough you will knew whether he worth to be there or not. Also if you are ready to be there.

Then when the time come you need to show why you are there. That will commence respect. Your position is nothing if you are not fit to it. Deep down you know unless you are to stupid. The most stupid person out there if the one who did not know he is stupid.

Lumba ke tak Lumba

Hidup ni satu perlumbaan atau tidak ?

Waktu kita membesar semua start dari 0 dengan common goal dan kayu ukur yang sama. Tak kisah la kau nak jadi apa kayu ukur nya lebih kurang sama untuk umur kau at least sampai kau SPM. Kau boleh argue ada orang yang ada certain advantage dan kau tak ada tapi end of the day semua di ukur dekat kayu yang sama.

Aku memang against idea mansuh segala exam yang standardized. Pentaksiran sekolah lah, kemahiran insaniah lah that is bullshit. Walau apa pun kita tetap kena ada the basic knowledge. It is a race dan kau kena check all the points. Score all the A sebab kau cuma boleh lalu checkpoint tu sekali je. Mungkin certain orang tak kisah tapi the result akan bersama kau sampai mati.

Bila dah dewasa aku rasa dia masih berlumba. Mungkin kayu dia dah tak sama. Bila dah dewasa kau berlumba dan ukur dengan kayu yang kau sendiri set. Kalau kau berlumba dengan kayu orang lain kau takkan rasa tenang.

Kayu kau yang kau sendiri set apa checkpoint kau. Apa kau nak jadi, apa kau nak buat. Kalau kau tak set kayu kau sendiri hidup kau akan jadi static dan tak ada cita-cita. Dengan ilmu pengalaman baru kau tahu macam mana nak set dan capai checkpoint kau. Tanpa ini, mula la kau set benda yang mengarut dan kelakar.

Period ni period yang susah dalam hidup aku tapi aku belajar banyak benda dengan tengok orang.