Man Across The Table

A story of a man been working for 30 hard years at an iron mill. One day he was called to the office to meet the mill owner. They had a talk. At the end of day the man felt that there was nothing special with the owner. Even he can be like him if he decide to do something with his life this past 30 years.

When you look at your boss or people above you long enough you will knew whether he worth to be there or not. Also if you are ready to be there.

Then when the time come you need to show why you are there. That will commence respect. Your position is nothing if you are not fit to it. Deep down you know unless you are to stupid. The most stupid person out there if the one who did not know he is stupid.

Lumba ke tak Lumba

Hidup ni satu perlumbaan atau tidak ?

Waktu kita membesar semua start dari 0 dengan common goal dan kayu ukur yang sama. Tak kisah la kau nak jadi apa kayu ukur nya lebih kurang sama untuk umur kau at least sampai kau SPM. Kau boleh argue ada orang yang ada certain advantage dan kau tak ada tapi end of the day semua di ukur dekat kayu yang sama.

Aku memang against idea mansuh segala exam yang standardized. Pentaksiran sekolah lah, kemahiran insaniah lah that is bullshit. Walau apa pun kita tetap kena ada the basic knowledge. It is a race dan kau kena check all the points. Score all the A sebab kau cuma boleh lalu checkpoint tu sekali je. Mungkin certain orang tak kisah tapi the result akan bersama kau sampai mati.

Bila dah dewasa aku rasa dia masih berlumba. Mungkin kayu dia dah tak sama. Bila dah dewasa kau berlumba dan ukur dengan kayu yang kau sendiri set. Kalau kau berlumba dengan kayu orang lain kau takkan rasa tenang.

Kayu kau yang kau sendiri set apa checkpoint kau. Apa kau nak jadi, apa kau nak buat. Kalau kau tak set kayu kau sendiri hidup kau akan jadi static dan tak ada cita-cita. Dengan ilmu pengalaman baru kau tahu macam mana nak set dan capai checkpoint kau. Tanpa ini, mula la kau set benda yang mengarut dan kelakar.

Period ni period yang susah dalam hidup aku tapi aku belajar banyak benda dengan tengok orang.

6 YEARS OR 10 YEARS

 If you start counting from 3rd September it is 6. If really from 2012 then it is a decade. This might read selfish but if you are not responsible to take care of yourself then who would? Self started from one then it became two then by this time four.

I chose my wife who could support me to fulfill my life and dream. Life and dream also varies and changes over time. We had gone thru a lot since it started but people only see the good part but the bad part actually teaches you and makes you improve. Sometimes it triggers me when people said that we are fortunate, we have an easy life.  I can't understand how people see it but a lot of them said it. Maybe they saw us going places, living comfortably, and dining what we want.

In 6 years Yasmen had enough experience with our marriage till she had also evolved in the way she thinks at least. There is no easy way to achieve it unless you grind and work hard. It's a shame some people believe you can do it the other way around and still reach it. Yes, maybe with some luck. Sadis if you fail.

I look at anniversaries the same way I look at birthdays. What had we achieved and improved over a year? From 5th to 6th, I am still finding my way in my career. I earn less, but technically I feel I have more skill than before. Aaron has been better with reading and math, Akhtar has grown up more, and Yasmen I need to ask her.

For more years to come. May our life be better and better.

Take a Deep Breath and Jump

11 August 2014 - 7 April 2022

2796 Days = 92 months = 9 years

One day one Month one Year One, I still don't know what to expect but I knew it will be hard.

They say at least you know what you don't know. It was one hell of a ride but I never surrender. It felt that the 5 years bond would not end. But when you enjoy your work, you have things to look forward to time goes by fast. There is a moment when I felt that you truly believe in the company. You are willing to do anything for IJM.

I learned a lot here. At work, In life, I am a bit saddened to leave in this kind of condition knowing that I am leaving it to become worse. I am not saddened for the company because I know anyhow it will survive. I am sad for the people I left behind, friends and workers. Knowing they will suffer.

Now is the time for me to take a really deep breath and jump. This time the fight is real, but am doing this for our future. I have my goal. Now let's go for it. 

Its Time