11 April 15 to 28 November 16

From 11 April 15 to 28 November 16 it had been

Five Hundred Ninety Seven days had passed

51 million ticking second

1 year, 7 months, 17 days

That a very long way. Lots had happen in a sense that i also don't know how to describe them. It's like my world had been twisted upside down. I wish it just a dream that i soon be waking up. My brain had been hit and cramped with lot of things to be process. I fell like cursing or crying. For a 25 years old some time i feel it is too much.

It is written that my life won't be such a joy ride. The moment i let my guard down shit keeping coming out of no where. For now I just want to say to who or what so ever setting this universe you are just starting a war with me.

I had loss what i could loss. Unfairly taken from me in the mist i am marching to my glory days. I will take you out. You just wait.

You and Other

1. You can't be an engineer if there is no indonesian to be carpenter and banglas to be barbender.  Your degree or Ir is as good as empty paper.
2. Peoples are created equal the different is our story path and beginning.
3. Don't feel you are just too good then others.
4. People always said all the negative thing about malays and why they are poorer the Chinese.
5. Chinese also got as much as negative quality as malay but they are very protective of their kind.
6. Malay most of time think about themselves and even lie and steal from their own kind.
7. This negative thing create a major step back in malay especially in business.
8. Good people treat people in a way you want to be treated. 

Jackson Teller

The Sons of Anarchy had ended. Anarchy a familiar word to me.  SOA start when  i was still in semester 3. From the first episode it just cut deep inside me. I watch them laugh, cry and scream of agony. Losses of family and brother. The end mark the end of me. Significantly the life of as a student, as my mum boys and the one who go fun crazy. Life as a worker really eat me up. An engineer. The one thing that had been out of my mouth since i learn about the word. I even got a name card to prove it. So what else ? The inside of me sometime cries, being away from family, get suck by the darn of working life. The feel of responsibility slowly persuade me to wake up and keep on life moving. Maybe one day i left like Jax. Having tied all the lose end and smilling for the good future i left behind.

BUKU BERTEMU RUAS

Nasib kau la Ahmad Syazzuwan. Nasib kau la. Aku pun tak tahu nak cakap apa yang jadi dalam hidup aku ni. Kadang aku rasa hidup aku terlampau penuh. Kadang aku rasa kosong. Impian engkau ? entahla tough luck bro. Impian yang baik kena ada skrip yang baik, pelakon, jalan cerita, prop semua nak baik. Kadang aku sendiri tak faham apa jadi dalam hidup aku. aku nampak keras tapi aku terperinci kepada benda kecil kecil. True story one time kami melepak lepas bayar bil kami nak blah lepas bos aku bayar makan aku tegur dia bos tak bayar lagi burger bakar tadi. dia sendiri tak perasan. Aku cakap la sebelum dia renyuk resit tu aku perasaan situ xde tulis harga burger bakar. True Story bro. Bila aku imagine sesuatu aku imagine semuanya from start to finish. bukan jenis yang bayang awal blurr put keluar image last. Kira angan angan aku jenis pandai la.ada step by step haha. Banyak sangat benda yang aku tak dapat biar pun baru umur 22 tahun. Agak nya esok umur 40 satu buku log dah siap dah. Benda yang aku tak suka tak minat memang la aku tak minat. Kau pusing cara mana pun aku tetap tak minat. Certain benda boleh la aku tolerate. Tu pun pedih je hati.haha. hobi aku ni mencarut tetapi carutan tu 70% nya kepada diri sendiri. kalau aku cakap bodoh pun jarang sangat la dekat orang lain. Sebenarnya orang yang pernah menerima bodoh tu beruntung sebab aku cakap bodoh dekat membe membe aku je. Dengan orang lain aku berbudi bahasa la juga. Aku  bukan apa aku tak nak esok anak aku mulut asyik mencarut tak pasal.sini kepala hotak sana bodoh tak cool pun. haha. Aku memangla seorang yang pemalas kalau ikhlas baru la aku rajin haha. Aku ni paling malas nak buat baik untuk orang lain. apa aku dapat ya dak. Nampak tak situ otak bisnes tu. haha. Agak ada orang baca apa lancau aku tulis ni semua pasal aku je. Kalau ada baca pun siapa nak heran kan. haha. dah dah selamat malam. aku sekarang hobi tidur awal bangun subuh. Aman tak ada siapa apa bunyi pun nak kacaw aku.

12.07 am

#NP JT - Mirror

2 APRIL

2 April. Today is my mum birthday. Thanks mama. I wished her this morning. Now i know her wish to have a holiday somewhere. Don't worry mum ill make your wish come true. Before i do anything big for myself first ill make your dream come true first. That my word.

2 April. Today is Yasmen birthday. Thanks for always being there for me. Sorry i can't give you the best birthday ever. I hope the dinner ill make for you will make you happy. I did not have any fancy idea or some expensive give. I am truly regret because today is your birthday but i cannot make you happy all day. Sorry